Why am I here? Why I am here.

Michelle's awesome timeline

Michelle’s awesome timeline to keep track of our service time

I realize I am posting this on December 21st assuming the world will not end.

9 months have gone by and these are the two things that I think about…everyday. Maybe it’s the holiday season and I’m jealous of my fellow volunteers that are heading home. Maybe it’s the heartbreaking, unthinkable tragedy that happened last Friday. It could be the fact that back at home my family has been going through a big and stressful transition and I have been unable to help them. It could be the daily stress I’ve been feeling trying to serve such a diverse population and failing at setting appropriate boundaries. Of course, not to forget the cultural differences, the feeling of mundane routine, and a sense of isolation and lack of freedom, and sure, anyone would question – why? Why would Michelle and I and the other volunteers, not just in Jamaica, but anywhere else in the Peace Corps world, why would do we do, what we do.

Here’s a few reasons for me:

-  The smile of my 80+ year old basic computer student, blown away by Google Maps

-  Squished into a  public transit mini-van meant to hold 15 but instead holding 27 and
listening to people sing-a-long to yet another Celine Dion or cheesy 90s R&B song

-   Hanging out with my host family

-   Confusing/Educating Jamaicans to think twice about me being a person from China

-   Learning how to cook things from scratch like homemade bread and tomato sauce

-   Seeing Michelle and I grow as individuals and as a couple

-   Greeting anyone and everyone daily

-   Making Jamaicans laugh with my weak attempts of using slang and proverbs

-   Learning to live simply, sometimes without the internet, sometimes without electricity

-   Growing my own fruit trees from seeds

-   Learning to be at home as a stranger in a new place

-   Hanging out with other Peace Corps Volunteers on the island

-   Learning from Jamaicans how to not take things to seriously, how to laugh

-   Seeing youth get excited about creative career opportunities they never knew existed.

-   Supporting youth to celebrate creativity, natural talent, passions, and vocation

There is no such thing as a typical Peace Corps experience, not in this country, and not in Peace Corps in general. There is no typical life. Everything I mentioned above, challenges or victories is my life. I am both happy and frustrated to be where I am right in this moment.

This amazes me because the person I was before Peace Corps, wouldn’t have seen and accepted life this way. I was always trying to make things selfishly perfect for me and I finally understand that I can’t, and that’s ok. That is why I am here – to see my life changed by the experiences I am having, both good and bad. I am here because I do believe that I have something to offer and share with Jamaica and I believe Jamaica have important things to share with me. 9 months down, 18 months left to go…

theFalls

The Center Before

The Center Before

The community center now

The community center now

Our Awesome Host Parents

Our Awesome Host Parents

Learning how to stuff Lobsters

Learning how to stuff Lobsters

Learning to Bake

Learning to cook by candlelight

Learning to cook by candlelight

Once they were pups

Once they were pups

All grown up

All grown up

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6 thoughts on “Why am I here? Why I am here.

  1. Merry Christmas. Thanks so much for your thoughts and your perspective. In my life I always appreciate the time for introspection and the renewal it brings to the spirit. Those periods in my life, where that has been thrust on me thru all kinds of circumstances are places where I found out later I came out a better person grounded in whats important. Thanks for reminding me about this . I will take time today, especially during the remainder of this season, to take account and to embrace people and places that make life fulfilling and to relish the things that mark the passing of time. We miss ya’ll.

    • No problem and thank you Bin for the reminder to embrace the now and the people we love. A timely reminder should this end of the world thing really happen today. We miss you all as well and Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you. Hope we can catch up soon. :)

  2. I love this post Jedd, thanks for sharing. You are an amazing person and a talented PCV. Thanks for serving our world in this way. When you once again call the PNW home, could you please cook me stuffed lobster? That looks AMAZING. Fresh baked bread is also welcomed by my stomach… Miss you and wish you the best this holiday season.

    • Thanks TL. You know how inspired I am by you and Shella. Just re-read the Alchemist and thought of you. I look forward to hearing more about how you are doing and where your adventure is taking you these days. And yes, would love to cook for you and Andy a stuffed lobster. :) Have a great New Year!

  3. I would also like lobster! Thank you for posting. I love what you guys are doing. We are actually sending a missions team to Jamaica this summer. I don’t have much info about it right now but it will be families and High School students, probably not me.

    • Lobster noted. :) Maybe we should have Admission Reunion. It would be great to see everyone all together and here what everyone is up to. FB me about the mission trip. Would love to know where everyone is going and if Michelle and I can help in anyway (connect folks, assisting on island, etc…). Also…make sure you are on that trip. :)

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